Friday, January 30, 2009
my mood is totally spoilt today.... received a call from my dad when i am working and he told me i have failed my "economics of Industry" module... i was in dazed when i hear that because i thought i will pass that module as i have a little confident when i walked out of the examination hall that day... but the result came unexpectedly... and my supp is during my next exam's period... meaning i have to study 4 modules instead of 3...
the worst thing is the school sent each module's result slip separately... meaning i still do not know whether i have pass or fail for the rest of the modules.. and the expected module that i thought i will fail is Financing of Accounting... so if i really did not pass that too... i will have 2 supp paper!!!
i was crying just now as this is the first time i have supp paper and i hate to study the same module again... and the main thing is if i really did not manage to pass my supp as well... i will have to repeat the module.. meaning my dad will have to pay like 1K for me again... really hate to waste his money as he is paying for my school fees already... feel so lonely now as i do not have a shoulder to cry on... got no one to tell my problems... i will have to wake up and start studying harder... =(
signing off with a heavy heart....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:00 AM
Friday, January 02, 2009
on 1 Jan 2009... it was the first day of a new year.... but it was the saddest day for me... he told me on msn that he was sorry because he couldn't be with me again... i know he said this because he know that i won't give up and i will still hold on some hope that things will turn out differently... he is making me to give up this relationship as he has already given up... he said he cannot forgive me on how i have treated him....
when he said all those words... i can feel that something had pierced through my heart and my tears kept flowing... i really cannot bear to let of this 1 year plus relationship... but he called me to forget each other and treat this relationship as a dream... does he think that i can easily forget this relationshp?? the answer is no!! i have love him so deeply even when we were quarrelling... but now he could not forgive me because i have angered him too much... and the most important thing is that i do not know what i have done to make him so angry...
i only know that i have slammed his car door... i have threw all his things out of the car and i have kicked his car... and he told me what i have done is worst than a girl cheating on her boyfriend... i was devastated when i heard that... i am willing to change but he is not giving me any more chance... i do not even know where i have gone wrong... how am i going to know my mistake and change??
anyway... i know it's too late to say anything because he has made his decision to leave me and not hurt each other further... but i know i still love him alot and i will continue to love him till one day i finally realise it's time to move on...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:00 AM
