Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Thomas Loy... i tell you.. this time round it will be my turn to say this... I am really sorry.. unless you can find a way to save this relationship... I am really sorry... but i doubt you will do so... so forget it...you must be thinking why should you be the one saving this relationship when you did nothing wrong and i was the one who threw attitude at you at vivocity... but have you think through how much you have hurt me that day.. ok i know you will think that day what you have all said was sarcastic remarks... just trying to get back at me and letting me feel what's your feeling like when i said all those harsh words to you as well...
but what you have said that day was way too overboard i tell you... finally i have gave in and said a couple times of "sorry" to you... but you?? you are just treating it was necessary for me to do that... and happily receiving it... but have you forget about the attitude i threw at you previously?? i can say NO... you are still unhappy... you feel that just saying sorry is not enough... maybe is because quarrel after quarrel... i think that just saying sorry can solve everything... but to you... a sorry is not enough because so what if i have say sorry... i didn't change my temper, my attitude and character at all... after i said sorry to this matter... i will attitude you again for another matter... am i right??
but what about you?? how have you treated me that day... u treated me like shit or dirt... walking off a few times at vivo... and making me to chase after you and calling you not to go... or demanding me to appear infront of you within 5 minutes... calling me to fuck off or get out of the car if i do not want to go home with you... just because i make you angry... u want to go home and cool down... calling me to go home by myself if i do not want to go home... is that how a bf should treat his gf even though they are quarreling?? how many times have i been the one who gave in first and call or message you to say sorry when we quarrel... it's always me who do that!! i can say that i won't do that at all in my past relationship...
but i can feel that you are taking it for granted now... you are always saying that i act like a princess and want you to do whatever i say... but have you ever think through you are acting as a DA NAN REN too!!! when we quarrel and it was me who have started it... you will want it fair and square... you will get back to me by saying sarcastic remarks.. you will demand me to do somthing to show my sincerity that i am sorry... but have you wondered after you shoot me back with all your sarcastic remarks... will i still have the mood to do something to please you...
i can say that now my heart is already numb... i have been hurt too much by you... the tears that i shedded was wasted... you can still say that i am crying because i want you to pity me... fuck man!! do you think that if i'm not sorry for what i have done.. i will cry?? no... not at all... you didn't even console me... just keep walking off or starting with your sarcastic remarks again... you can even say that even i'm helping you to pay bit of your petrol is not enough... you can tell me that so what i pay $5 or $10... it's nothing to you... FUCK you man... as a gf i'm helping you to pay bit of it is already good ok... if it is considered a little bit to u... then why still take the money from me?? some of the gf do not even bother to help to pay the petrol cost... but my heart was so pain that day... do you know that?? i doubt so... you will think that i am acting... so whatever... and the most hurting part was that you said you have a choice on everything... you can even said that you have a choice whether to hold my hands from that day onwards... just because at zara... i told you to stop holding my hands... you can treat it that i'm giving you attitude and wanting to be fair and square.. you told me seriously that next time you will have a choice whether to hold my hands... fuck... if don't want to hold anymore... why still be together... am i right...
i will stop here because i do not want to think of those angry moments anymore... you can choose whether or not to be angry for what i have said but i know u won't be angry... just like what you have said before... every one has their story so this is my side of story on how i feel... lastly... i will bless you for finding a better gf that will do whatever you say and won't attitude you...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:00 AM
